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Something I cherish and treasure very much and suddenly it is gone. Cannot retrieve back anymore.

Yeah, to some of you, it may be small matter. But somehow, it really break my heart when I see it empty. Automatic response - I cried.

Sooner or later, it will be gone but at least, I can have it for longer period of time. The feeling is like, someone give you a gift and destroy it without your permission.

Upset and disappointed.

I know...

I know it doesn't belong to me,
I know I will never own it,
I know there will not be a good ending,
I know it will hurt me in the future

And yet, I could't let it go now.

I know I am tired,
I know I wanna give up,
I know what is the best solution,
I know I will be left alone without it very soon,

And yet, I chose to cheat myself..
That I am having it.

He is having Menopause

You know what, smoke coming out from my ears now.

I went to warehouse just now to collect some bolts. We have borrowed 300 pieces of bolts from the piping previously and hence, I would like to return it to them now. Therefore, I told this warehouse guy called Mario that I would like to get these bolts and returned it to piping team.

He asked me to wait for him inside the office and once he has finished his current tasks, he will come to me shortly. I didn’t say anything other than ok and went inside the office to wait for him.

Who knows what happened to him. He suddenly came up from my back and shouted at me to go over to his seats. Then he mumbled there that his boss wanted him to entertain my request first and treat my request as priority. Hello, your boss told you so and not me. So why threw your tantrum at me?

I just kept on quiet and said thank you to him nicely. But he still grumbled there.

Ok, no problem. I just kept my cool. When we were in the container to get those bolts, he asked me to send my guy over to carry those bolts.

I already told him that I am not going to bring those bolts out from the WAREHOUSE.

When I told him that I am not going to bring it out, he kept on grumbling there.

I tried to talk to him in mandarin and you know what he told me, my English is very good. Do not talk to me in mandarin. Wah lau eh, I really steamed up.

I think if Miss J from KL is here, both of them will be a perfect match to each other. Same same and no different.

I also have my own temper and limit. If I am the one who gives you troubles, ok fine. You can get angry at me. But what have I done to make you lose temper at me?

Thanks God. Finally Li came into rescue. Li talked to him in mandarin and he got no choice but to reply in mandarin. I asked him before this whether he is a piping guy and he told me in angry voice that he takes care of receiving and release material only.

But then Li told me he is a piping guy. This guy is really celaka. I think he is having menopause. I don’t wish to talk to him again.

Floating Roof Tank and Boiler

Guess what, four of us – me, Kelvin, Jeffrey and Ong climbed up to two tanks today – one stationary roof tank and another one is floating roof tank.

Tell you something, engineering is really marvelous and incredible. I was amaze when I looked down to the floating roof tanks. And I suddenly feel proud of choosing engineering as my career and work my butt out in oil/gas industry.

Oh, ya. Not going to confuse some of you, some of the pictures below are taken from boiler area.

Sunday in Danang - 29th June 08

People asked me – Why do you like to snap so many photos?

The reason is very simple. I am afraid of forgetting those sweet memories and my way of preserving it is by snapping photos of it. Some of the memories are just too sweet to put into words for description.

Hence, my preservation method is to snap the photos of those smiling faces and also the venue itself. I read this quote somewhere and I find it very true – “Photos will never lie”.

We might not remember those memories anymore but photos will never lie. It is a proof that we had a great time before.

And I do have my happy moments here before…

All these photos are taken on 29^th June 2008. Four of us went took the 7.30am bus to Danang (it was actually not bus abut the 16 seaters Mercedes van) and took our breakfast at Bamboo restaurant.

After that, Patrick came and met us at Big C shopping mall and fetched us up to the hill for the breathtaking scenery.

That was a day to remember because it was my first time to Metro, the SongTra Peninsula and also first time to take bus back to camp from Danang.

However, the bus was 90% full even before reaching Hoi An. Hence, all of us had to go down from the bus for head counting before we could go up to the bus again. Many of them didn’t write their name and as a result, the bus was full.

After all the head counts, the others who didn’t register had to ride back in taxi.

Steam Banana Cake

Guess what, I have baked a steam banana cake last night.

My last time of baking was during my SPM examination which was 10 years ago.

Well, I found a simple and healthy recipe from internet and I decided to give it a try last night. I have shared it with my colleagues this morning and they gave me code 2 code – approved with comments. Hehe!

Alright, I will try it again some other time.

'Ram' - Speciality in Quang Ngai, Vietnam

We went for 'Ram' during one of the Sunday lunch. It is actually a mixed platter of appetizer but to the Vietnamese, it is a main dish.

Vietnamese people are very specialized. When they sell chicken rice (Com Ga), they will only sell chicken rice. No other choices. Same thing happen to this shop selling ‘Ram’. They only sell ‘Ram’ and no other things.

So once we sit down, they will come and serve us at least 2 to 3 plates of this ‘Ram’. Then this ‘Ram’ will come together with many different types of vegetables or we called it ‘grasses and leaves’. The most important ingredient of this ‘Ram’ is its pork sauce.

We have to wrap one of the varieties ‘Ram’ onto the transparent sheet (like spring rolls skin) with some grasses, leaves and of course not forgetting the sauce.

The only problem with Vietnamese shops selling all these original Vietnamese’s delicacies are their glasses. They will put some empty glasses with a teapot of tea on the table and even though after being used by customers, they will never wash it.

Ok, no bluffing. I saw it with my own eyes. What they did is, they just throw away the remaining tea in the glass and put the glasses back to the tray. Yuck…!

Then after lunch on that Sunday, we went to laminate my newly bought mobile phone – my Sony Ericson P1.

Guess how much does it cost to laminate one mobile phone? VND 10,000 (it is equivalent to RM2) only. It took him around 15-20 minutes to laminate one handphone.

Hahaha, initially when Lim told me about this service, I thought it was done inside a shop.


Then only I realized that I am wrong. They actually have those stalls along the street to offer laminating service and they do laminate motorbike as well. All these Vietnamese are marvelous.


This is where the quote 'Nothing is impossible' is proven.

Mak gor is leaving tomorrow

Finally, one of our gang will demob back to KL office. Sooner or later, the whole gang is leaving and left only me and Ong.

My boss told me the day before yesterday that he has intention to transfer me to pre-com/commissioning department after I have finished my job in Field Engineering department.
Of course, I felt excited but I have to extend my stay here until next year.

When I told my hubby about this, he is not happy about that. Hm..let's wait and see...

New Day, New Hope

Today is the first day of the week and with a hope that new day will bring new hope to my life.

I still feel kind of moody and kind of depress. I have got questions answered but there are still something weird going on.

And I couldn't take no for an answer. That is the worst of me.

..

My Injured Foot

At last, I went to see a doctor for massage and to put on some chinese medicine on my sprained ankle. Nothing serious except that I cannot take cold drinks or sour food.

No hope to my Sandakan's style ABC.

Anyway, I went to the market at mile 1 1/2 for the BBQ pork noodles (Zha nyuk tai fun) this morning. Not as tasty as the one in Sek Chui market but can accept lah.




Sandakan's Zha Yuk Tai Fun (BBQ pork noddles)



My foot after the doctor's massage. Recovering soon.

From Sandakan

I am back to Sandakan now and today is the 5th day of my vacation. Hubby has gone back to KL just now and left me alone here.

I guess it is good for me also as I need some time alone. I am still in my miserable mood and trying to pull myself back to my normal self.

To tell you frankly, this is the first time I felt bored at home. I don't feel like moving around much but if just lying on my bed, I don't know what else to do. I didn't bring any new drama series or books back to Sandakan this time.

Yesterday was the worst. I had PMS pain and it made me so tired. At the same time, so miserable.

I am still wondering whether I can stop my mind from keep on thinking about it. Yeah, I need time to heal....

Flight Delay in Danang Airport

Siggh...they have delayed/re-scheduled the flight but the airline didnt bother to inform us.
At the end, we have to wait now at Danang airport for 2 hours fbefore the departure from Danang to Ho Chi Minh.

The airport is so small and they don't even have a restaurant for us to take our meal or at least a cup of espresso. Thanks God, they have wifi internet connection.

We were supposed to meet up with FY Lim for a dinner in Ho Chi Minh. Since we will be arriving late, it has been cancelled and we will only go for breakfast together tomorrow morning. What a sad story. And my stomach is growling. Sigh..!

This morning was a nightmare to me. Mr.J is on MC and everyone came to look for me. Vendors were here and I had to bring them around the site and there were so many other documentations waiting for me to submit and review.

I didn't manage to go for lunch by taking bus due to those documentations but luckily managed to hop into one of the department private car and the driver sent me back to camp.

Unfortunately, I still have some unfinished work in the office and I feel kind of guilty of it.
Hopefully, no big issues.

It has been raining heavily for the past few days. And guess what, the management announced finished work early today. I saw the TPC bus reached camp at 3.30pm. What a lucky day for the rest of the guys.

My goodness, I still have another 1 hour before my departure time.

Roller coaster mood

One minute I am ok but the next minute, tears are rolling down my cheek.
Come on, move on.

I still couldn't let go some of the words...

Went to QN this morning and then had our breakfast in front of Hung Vuong.
This was my first time in that shop for bit tet. The taste is quite good but unfortunately, I didn't take pictures of the bit tet I had this morning.

If some of you are wondering what is bit tet, the picture below will tell you what it is.
This picture of bit tet was taken during our trip to Hue.

Sweet memories in Hue

It was my most wonderful trip for this year.

Eight of us went to Hue on 29th April night and came back on 1st May.
30th April and 1st May is Vietnam's public holiday. After went through a lot of obstacles, we finally able to make it to Hue.

We left for Hue on 28th April night after work and thanks god, we managed to request a van and a driver from company. Or else, moving around Hue is very difficult.

Haha, I bought many bags from Hue. Couldn't stop myself from buying it because it is cheaper than Hoi An.

It hurts

Some of the words still hurt me badly. I have not forget the sweet memories but trying to forget it as it put salt on my wound.

I deserve it

I couldn't blame anyone but myself for letting people came into my boundary and hurt me deeply.
It is unbelievable that I never learn from previous mistake.

Just hope that time will heal me.

The End to my 2 weeks freedom

My senior / partner has finally came back to the office after 2 weeks of home leave. You can call my last two weeks as heaven or hell.

Tons and tons of papers piled on my table and people kept on dropping by to ask questions. I don’t even have time to really sit down and concentrate on my paper works.

But no doubt, I learnt a lot. There are many installation and design problems and thanks God, my other colleague, Mr.H is here. He taught me a lot and I really appreciate his efforts.

Without Mr.J here, I have to learn how to read certain drawings and find my own way to solve the mysterious. Honestly speaking, I enjoy those stressful moments.

Now he is back and I have mixed feelings. I feel happy and worried at the same time.

I don’t feel like coming to work today and I feel very useless. I know nothing about engineering. It seems like my existence in the office doesn’t matter much to them.

I feel like going back to KL. But is going back to KL solve the problem? The answer is no.

Sigghh….

What to do with the money?

Well, the straight forward answers to the question why I am here at Dung Quat site, Vietnam are because no. 1 - I want to earn extra money and also to save it and reason no. 2 is I want to beautify my CV with my site experience.

Problem is what should I do with the extra money? The interest rate of the fixed deposit and saving account in Malaysia is so low. It is not worthwhile to keep our money there at all.

Then how about unit trust and stock market? Yeah, good idea but you can't put all the eggs in one basket right?

It reminds me of the hokkien song with the title 'If I have one million..'
Yeah, if I have a bucket of money, what should I do with it?

Why banned blogspot?

Argghh..!! You know what, they have banned blogspot here in Vietnam.
I have tried to access to blogspot from office server, camp server and even outside hotel. Yet, I still can't access to my blogspot.

Alright, I can access to my account via www.blogger.com but I cannot access to www.frennie-orange.blogspot.com

It really frustrated me as I couldn't view the comments. Sigghh...!!

By the way, today is SATURDAY. The worst day of the week. Yeah, you may think I have became psycho because most of the people agree that Saturday is the best day of the week.

Well, if I am working in KL, yes it is. But it is not applicable anymore if you are working at Dung Quat site. We work from 7am to 6pm and from Monday to Saturday. Scary huh?

My mindset is not fully calibrated yet. It has been calibrated to work 10 hours per day but not on Saturday yet. God help me to overcome this day..

I can't wait for the day to end. That will be my happiest moment of the week - 6pm on Saturday.

Oh ya, one of my boss is leaving for home leave tomorrow morning. Hence, he wanted to handover some works to me. May sound like a bad news to you but not to me.
Because "Challenges means excitements".

This is how Dung Quat Refinery looks like

GRANDMA PASSED AWAY

I received my mum sms last night around 9.30pm (10.30pm in Malaysia) that my grandma (father's side) has passed away last night around 9.30pm Malaysia time.

Then I called her straight away using my Vietnam mobile and she told me what has happened to my grandma. I was supposed to feel sad because I have lost a family member. Unfortunately, I don't...

That is what troubled me now. Am I cold hearted?

I tried to recall back my memories with her but I couldn't think of any. The most vivid memory that I have about her is, I went to her house (or also my 'Ah Pak' house) to spend my saturday with my cousins and she would tell us not to go too far away from the house.

Then I still have some memories when she stayed with us at our mile 4 (Bandar Kim Fung) old house and she always stayed at home during her stay with us. We tried to bring her out to supermarkets and for meals, but she always refused.

And of course, I still remember that she doesn't love me that much compare to my cousin brother and sister because I don't stay with her and also because I am a girl. As you know, the old generation always like to have sons or grandsons. They thought that having daughters or granddaughters are just a waste of time. As we can't carry on the family names with us...

I still remember that she always compare my examination results with my cousin bro and sis and my results were the worst among the three.

Yeah..not a very good memories...and I keep on telling myself, she is no longer with us and I should let go of all these bad and hurtful memories.

Let bygones be bygones.

No, I am not going to fly back to Sandakan for the funeral, not because I don't have any good memories with her but because, it will take me at least 2 days to fly back.

Yeah, I know...all these are just an excuse for not willing to fly home. I tried to imagine if my grandparents (mother'side and touch wood) passed away, I am sure that I will be flying home straight away..no matter how much do I need to pay for the tickets and also to use up all my home leave days...

That's why I am struggling...am I cold-hearted? I am suppose to feel sad and bad but I am not..
And the only thing I can do for her is, pray for her soul to be rest in peace..And I hope to see her in heaven when my turn to be with the Father has arrived...

My boss is way too capable

People always said that if you have a good wife, then you will have a lazy daughter. But if you have a hardworking daughter, your wife will be the lazy one.

I am 100% agree with this saying as it applies in work environment as well. If you have a knowledgeable and smart boss, you will become the slow learner worker.

I wish I have a knowledgeable boss but at the same time, someone who knows how to let go some of the responsibilities to me.

I am stuck here, do not know where to turn to. Am I over-sensitive that he doesn't like me being here or this is his way of working?

I dont like the feeling of no ownership or no control over the tasks I am going to work on it. He gave me some work but dont trust me. That really hurt me.

Frustration with Today's lifestyle

Things that frustrate me very much recently:

- Early morning traffic congestion in Kuala Lumpur city.
- No breakfast due to heavy traffic jam in the morning.
- Lack of sleep and could'nt wake up early in the morning
- People kept on telling me they do not earn enough money. Why don't find a solution?
- Trying very hard to start own business but no idea what business to venture in.
- My PMS pain, it spoilt my day.
- Yeah, online business earn money easily and big bucks but how? It never tells you how..
- Yes, look for a niche market. But where to find and what niche market should I start with?
- 24 hours are not enough for me.


Siggh...today lifestyle and expectation is pretty hard to meet and satisfy...

A very meaningful Parents-To-Be Blog

I have accidentally came across this blog yesterday, and found it very touching and attracted me to go back to the blog everyday for updates.

It is about a couple who will soon to become parents and they have wrtten to their baby, Josiah via the blog. It is wonderful if one day their baby is old enough to understand English and able to read all these parents-to-baby love letters.

It gave me an idea on what to do when I am pregnant next time. Hahaha! Hey, I am serious. It is very meaningful.

Here is the link - http://www.babypok.blogspot.com/

www.weddingisle.com.my

Yes, we have appointed Sharon from Wedding Isle to be my Make-Up Artist on my wedding day in Kuala Lumpur.

One word to describe her arrangement/coordination and art, which is FANTASTIC.
I have no regret to have her on that day.

I have informed her earlier that in the evening of my wedding day, I need her to send another make-up artist to my parents-in-law house to help my mother-in-law and sister-in-law in make-up and also hair do.

Then I have requested for another make-up artist for my mother as well and hence total we need 3 make up artists.

She promised me with a smile. And she did not disappoint me. :)
She even send extra one more make up artist to my parents-in-law house. Therefore, each of us had one dedicated make up artist on that evening.

Her arrangement and all the make-up artists work are very impressive. Because of that, we were not to the wedding banquet and everyone wore a happy smile.

If you are interested in getting her for your big day, please do feel free to surf her website for contact no. : http://www.weddingisle.com.my/ Appointing her for your big day is highly recommended by me.

Madeline & Ong's house warming

Yup, we went to Madeline and Ong's house warming on 12th January 2008 at Puchong. We are quite impressed with the house layout and also scenery that you can see from the living room and also the master bed room.

They have a big green grass field with some cows eating grass and also a wooden house village on the either side of the view. It gives you a very strong country side feel, just like those caucasian country side feeling.

Under the same housing area, the developer has built some four storey duplex for sale as well.
They priced it around RM300,000 with 1900 sqft. Surprisingly, the maintenance fees for this duplex is only RM200 per month. Can you believe it?

Unfortunately, it is too far from KL. I am tired of the everyday traffic jam...



Me and my hubby..

Thank You Boss!

We have been waiting patiently for our boss to finish his meeting from 3.30pm until 6pm last Friday. And yet, our hope to get the increment and bonus letter is crashed when he came out from the meeting room only at 6pm. All the HR girls have went home and oh no, we have to wait until Monday.

Thanks God, we got it early morning yesterday.

Guess what, everybody got average increment of 15% and 2.5 months bonus. Everyone is smiling and leaping with job for the entire day.

And of course, I am overjoyed as well because it exceeds my expectations.
Thank you boss…

Miki Ojisan cheese cake

This is one of the best cheesecake you can find in KL. Although the price is not cheap, but it is worthy for occassional tea break cheesecake indulgence.

One can buy this cheese cake from KLCC's Isetan at top floor.

Go ahead and try it..forget about those weight for a minute... :)

Close deal

Finally the Gucci handbag is sold at RM700...

Gucci Handbag on SALES...

Anyone interested to buy this Gucci Handbag? Presently, the price is fixed at RM700 and it is still negotiable.

I am actually helping my colleague to sell off this handbag and she bought this handbag at USD500. She has used this handbag only once and she doesn't realise that the leather of this handbag is actually made from pig skin.

Well, she is a muslim and hence, she has to sell off the handbag now.

Please do leave me an email at yeepui81@hotmail.com if you are interested.

Meeting up an old friend..

Guess what, Mindy is back from Melbourne for 2 weeks holiday and we went out for lunch at Purple Cane just now.

We didn't see each other for 2 years and hence, a lot of catching up to do. She has turned to be a mature lady and she made me realise something..

She is a master graduate and she did try to be an office lady before. However, she gave up and got a job as a japanese restaurant manager or you can call that as a supervisor.

The job position may sound like an insult to her qualification and capabilities. But after our chat, I agree with her decision.

One of the reason that she gave up her office job was because, she hates sitting in front of the monitor and no communication with human. Whenever she stepped into the office at 8.30am, she could not wait for 5.30pm to go home.

She could not stand it any longer and hence decided to change. Her job scope now requires her to talk to customers, coordinate/manage the staff and learned on how to manage a restaurant.

That is very good...all these are soft skills which our teacher in school never taught us. With all these soft skills, she can implement it in her own business in the future.

Then it suddenly prompt me, am I happy with my current job? Is this what I want? Is becoming an engineer and talking to a computer is what I regard as my ambition.

I salute for her courage to try something different. It is not easy for a person to let go his/her own status or career achievements even though he/she knows that is not her dream job...

That is what happened to me now.....

Instrument engineer in an oil/gas industry may sound like a dream job to some of the people. Because of that, it makes you feel good to be in that post. But do I really want such a job where I have to sit in front of the computer from 9am to 6pm? Can I continue doing such job until my retirement age?

I don't think so...that is not me....

Welcome 2008!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Wow..my first blog in the year 2008. I wish everyone will have a blessed and good year in this year of 2008!