I know...

I know it doesn't belong to me,
I know I will never own it,
I know there will not be a good ending,
I know it will hurt me in the future

And yet, I could't let it go now.

I know I am tired,
I know I wanna give up,
I know what is the best solution,
I know I will be left alone without it very soon,

And yet, I chose to cheat myself..
That I am having it.